she left word for me and made me think that in life,its hard to get a chance to renew ur self and erase ur past mistakes and at the same time it also made me think that a friend like u is very rare to find..there's no use of crying and no use of saying sorry now..I let all my friends down and that makes me what?u and all tried so hard to help me to be a better person,to advantage me in proving to all people that i can do it,but i did nothing to please u guys..a friend told me that its up to me to make the decision and not them and u are so right..thank you for ur advise..
its true im leading to nowhere now..i didnt know that this could make such a big impact on me..way bigger than the counseller..i think its because u are one of my bestfriend and u were very honest with ur words..im sorry that i waste all ur hard work and the others but im really trying..yes,i kept on saying that i will change but i dont..yes,i took advantage of this chance..i noticed..but i never meant to sink to such depths..i never meant to be like this..i know the consequences of staying like this..and i dont want to be a failure..i will try my best..
but i hope that u will stay as my friend and keep supporting me and talk some sense into me if i did anything wrong..just like u did to me..i am so sorry once again..and i love you and the rest..and thank you very very much..i really appreciate it..ks.
sorry for the wrong grammar..but i dont care..=)
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